sometimes

sometimes I lay in bed & think, "well. what if I would have approached the situation differently? how would my life differ?"

my mind is optimistic in regards to the imagined outcome, but I guess I'll never know.

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heHhhh

so today when I was working out and doing the dummy knees/kicks, Ed was like "damn she kicks that thing hard..all the other girls just tap it!" and they always make fun of me saying they would never want to meet me in an alley. lol... my right side is "almost picture perfect"! makes me happy cus I only learned for a little while.

gotta know how to take care of yourself and not rely on another person to do so.

can't really sleep.

I was gonna sleep but idk. can't really sleep. was gonna fblog, but I'm giving up on that. there are better things in life that I don't have to feel pathetic to earn.

my feet are really warm. I hate when I'm in bed and the whole bed is hot and there's no cold space. if I stick my foot out of the blanket, though, I feel like somethings going to eat it. meh. I have weird sleeping habits.

I took a nap today and it felt pretty long except it was only one hour. school was so boring. I always feel like I'm going to die in my first and last class. they're so fucking boring :(. English was not cool today because I didn't read my book.

I won't be able to get my Prius until at least October. this makes me sad because I won't get to see BT for a while and I can't run my own errands. maybe I will go learn to drive stick so I can take my grandpas car.

I have been thinking about getting another piercing on my ear. I don't know if I want a third piercing on the lobe or on the cartilage. I don't really want a cartilage because if it gets infected it can really fuck up my ear and my ears are super prone to infection. meh.

talk about stream of consciousness blogging. lol. I'm going to make more YouTube videos tomorrow. that's usually what I do on days off now.

I am going to hit the gym tomorrow too. really really need to. it's been like two weeks. I lost weight which means I've lost muscle. :( damn. oh well. I really want my lab results to come back so I can figure out what's going on with my stomach. the worry is making me stress out really badly.

I'm so upset about the Prius situation. it's understandable due to what's going on in japan. it's not their fault. :(

I think it's time for a new phone. probably going to get the thunderbolt. I really like it. it's kind of big, and there is really no battery life... but I do really like the phone. I'll just get a spare battery if I end up getting the phone.

I hope I can get a job soon. I actually really want to work at walgreens because it's close and pretty easy. I used two really good references but I don't think that really matters since I have no job experience. I don't know where else I should look. meh. maybe Luckys or something. I was thinking maybe Ross, but my mom said that it's really dusty and uncomfortable there. so nevaminnnnd!

ok I'm really going to sleep now cus nobody is testing me back and my eyes feel like they're about to implode.

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better.

thank you for the great night, BT.

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